I am a mother.

 I never thought I would be a mother. My friends would dream about their future families but I didn't. They had all their kids names picked out before we were even old enough to date, I didn't even think I wanted kids.

To every one's surprise I became a mother and wife before any of my friends. To my surprise it is everything I never knew I wanted.

I never imagined that I could love something so much. Motherhood is the most rewarding and frustrating and beautiful and psychotic thing in the world. I feel like a crazy person and the most sane person all in one emotion.

I have four amazing children that I love more than I ever imagined I could. It is amazing how you can love something so much. I love being their mother and I am grateful for every moment I get to raise them and have them in my life.